Fast

Today I finished day 5 of a limeade fast. I drank only lemonade or limeade made from fresh-squeezed fruits with grade B maple syrup and filtered water all week.

Day 1 I was sipping consistently to keep satiated and hydrated, and I easily went through 16+ cups. The past few days I over-concentrated the drink, which was delicious, but meant I was taking fewer drinks–about half as much. It also started burning out my vocal chords from the acidity. My voice was really high-pitched that day, and crackly the next day.

I dialed it in by going back to 2 limes or lemons, which is about 1/4 C of liquid, to 1/4 C syrup, then 8 C water.

Anyway, I was a bit delirious by the end of the second day. I also worked nonstop about 9.5 hours that day so it didn’t help matters. However, today I feel oddly fine, like this is just my new lifestyle. All food smells really really good. One issue I had was I came home for a nap after work, and I was pretty disoriented when R came home. I sat up, but was confused when he tried to kiss me as it felt too ticklish on my lips.

Side note: I’ve also been resolving not to pick at my skin or hair this week.

I was using a straw at first so as not to over-acidize my teeth, but it wasn’t really working, so I resorted to buying and chewing gum to help balance my oral chemistry. Interestingly, when you go a while without eating, the jaw gets weaker, so this may counteract that.

But, so far this cleanse (not a fan of that word) has had zero impact on these mysterious skin bumps/bites I’ve been getting, so it may be time to break the fast, since hat was my entire objective. I do feel I could go another five days, but I’m not sure of the advantages at this point. I’ve gotten back a little self-control, at the expense of dropping a little brain function (according to R). 

Virgo Girl

Had a cavity filled for the first time in 10 years, and the 2nd time ever.

Keep getting told that I grind my teeth by dentists. I caught myself the other day sliding my clenched teeth over each other to the rhythm of a song, like some kind of weird percussion instrument. I caught myself a few times in one day, which means I probably do it a lot.

I’m feeling the Virgo energy on this first day of Virgo. I’m getting very embodied, and hitting my experiments hardcore again.

This morning I did 1 hr of yoga before work, wore two of the same Rx contact lenses as an experiment (-1.25 I think), and juice-fasted all day.

R wants to know when my fast will be over. I told him my body will let me know. Typical signs are constant peeing, and a clear tongue.

I’m continuing to break out with “bug bites,” while R has ceased. I’m thinking it may be some kind of staph infection, so I’m hoping my fast will work its typical magic in starving out the bad bugs in my body. Anyway, a few days without overeating, caffeine, and sugar can’t do me any harm.

Living with a Bias

Living with a bias
Study your brain
Know that whatever you think
Comes from a fire internal
Constantly burning
Citius, Altius, Fortius
Through the ages
Faster, Higher, Stronger

Sensitivity
Is the mother of intelligence
But survival goes to the fittest
Not the smartest
Not the wisest
And many will cry, “No more pollution!”
And many will cry, “No more poison!”
But the engines will turn
Because
Faster, Higher, Stronger

Even when there are no more mountains
No more enemies
Nothing left to destroy

The sensitive will say “no”!
And die of the poisons.
The rich get so high
The world becomes Disneyland
New dreams to ignite
And we throw our money into a web
Which takes us down a million tunnels
Full of funhouse mirrors
And new worlds to create

Because like a lover
We miss our better halves
But we came here alone and we’ll leave here alone
And we’ll remember ourselves with fondness

Gods or saints or benevolent rulers
We practice again and again
And the winners write the history books
So the arc of the moral universe
Is a painting in progress
And surely it will bend toward justice
Or whatever we are in the mood for