Lessons in Life are Repeated Until Learned

Ocean Beach 12-30-07

Walking along Ocean Beach today, I wasn’t paying attention to where I was walking and caught the edge of my sneaker on the lip of an asphalt cliff. BAM!! My ankle gave out, I was flattened, my camera, phone and change flew out of my purse, and I just layed there with my cheek against the cold asphalt with pain signals and chemicals exploding through my body like a screaming orgasm.

But instead of doing what I did the last time that happened (get up and run limping through the pain back to my car), I just took some deep breaths, slowly sat up, and just sat there until the throbbing had all but disappeared (about 15 minutes or so) and just watched the waves come in and the birds fly by. I think there is a lesson there, and I do think I handled it more effectively than the last time that happened, when afterward it swelled like a softball and I couldn’t walk without a limp for 2 weeks.

Let’s hope that slowing down and not always having to go to the next beach without paying attention to where I’m at, was a lesson learned.

A Brief History of Us

Radioactive material decayed into the more recognizable element iron. The early earth consisted of green water and lava 4.5 billion years ago. Granite rock & stable land mass appeared as a clump at the south pole. The earth covered with ice. Ice melted. Volcanic activity drove the land mass apart. Early algae created oxygen for the seas and the air. The earth covered with jungle. More complex creatures evolved. Dinosaurs evolved. Major volcanoes and a massive comet 7 miles wide killed the dinosaurs. Mammals evolved. Erosion and plate techtonics continued to change the face of the earth. 2 Million years ago, the earth went back into a huge ice age. Humans survived.

The last wave of glaciers began to receed 10,000 years ago.

Kind of puts things into perspective, that we’re all just surviving on a planet with an impressive history, with a future unimaginable.

It’s predicted we will follow the current trend of ice age cooling & warming until the land masses eventually collide, setting off new atmospheric and geologic changes until eventually the earth’s heat energy is completely dissipated and the earth once again becomes uninhabitable. If life still exists as we know it, we will be wise to jump ship, maybe head for Mercury…by then it could perhaps be habitable?

So what is our connection, our purpose? Just to exist! We ARE those initial radioactive elements, rearranged and recombined millions of times over. We are stardust, crudely and patiently changing name and form through the eons. So just enjoy the drama, and soak in our history.

Makes all my restlessness about my goals in life, or the ideas brought by others that I should guide a few hundred million humans for a few short years seem awful foolish. I can be a light in the world, no more, no less. And from what I know about Chemistry light will never ever die, just change vibration frequncy and color.

I am humbled by my dumb human brain which is so large yet cannot conceive of its smallest part. Are the miracle stories true? If so, do we weild the power collectively or individually to collapse the universe into itself? To prove what? Or, do we fool each other with our hopes to be special in our skins?

The cat perceives the same water I do, so it is not my illusion alone that the water exists as our brains are of the same stuff.

(I was hoping to go to bed early.)

Chaos and order are one and the same in the cosmic dance of Christmas lights.

(My eyes are drooping.)

Just concentrate and it will come to you. The road is not paved for you and no one will hand you a map. No one, for 2 million years has left a shiny pearl for me to trample upon today.

No more thoughts.


I asked my mind to solve a poblem before I went to bed. I gave it 5 or 6 variables I could think of, then turned out the light and went straight to sleep. When I awoke before dawn to the sound of another's alarm clock, I had an answer that perfectly solved the problem. The answer happened to include a variable I hadn't considered consciously.


3-6 Rainbow Diet

I got stuck in a rut of not eating very well, so I came up with a diet plan for myself that I started following today. It has worked pretty well, and I will report on it again later.

See the link to the right under More Stuff, or click here to go to the description. It is very simple and I hope it will keep my energy up throughout the day. Let me know what you think!

Japanese Tea Gardens, November 2007

No Turning Back

You've evolved beyond your old energy patterns. You can't go back to that world now, only forward.

To Infinity, and Beyond!

On another note, it IS possible to sit in half lotus or pelvic pose during conferences and at restaurants. I've been doing it the past 2 days on regular old chairs. My back feels great and I'm digesting well. People don't even give me weird looks, they just sit up a little straighter.

27 and I Have Learned So Much

Cute Portrait of Fea

So much from God

That I can no longer
A Christian, a Hindu, a Muslim,
A Buddhist, a Jew.

The Truth has shared so much of Itself
With me

That I can no longer call myself
A man, a woman, an angel,
Or even pure

Love has
Befriended [me] so completely
It has turned to ash
And freed

Of every concept and image
My mind has ever known.”

~Hafiz, I Have Learned So Much, The Gift – Poems by Hafiz, the great Sufi master, 14th century