Cat Consciousness

I picked up her urn tonight
Just to feel her weight again
And imagined her current state of consciousness
Now that she no longer has a cat body
And I wonder
Since you can experience sugar’s highly vibrating crystal consciousness by eating sugar
Psychedelic mushroom consciousness by eating a mushroom
If she has acute awareness now
Having swallowed death into her veins
Of being formless
And if she counts her life in millennia instead of minutes
And if she yearns to die to her nothingness
And experience life again