Stirring
January5
Pulling, churning,
Stealing my happiness.
Angry, set off, neurotic,
Just like us.
Critical, controlling,
Untrusting.
Dismissive and superior.
What’s best for us
Is that we are free.
How can we be free together?
Angry songs and dropping bombs
What’s the lesson in this tension?
Maybe I’m ready to stand up and fight
Maybe I’m ready to die.
The stifling reality of being limited
In a world of infinite glory
Could I ever love enough?
Trust enough
In the umbilicals that are growing toward me?
Can I forget my inability to overpower my abuser?
Can I sing with this voice?
Do I have a choice?
I’m on stage
The light’s on
They are waiting.