Still Me (219/365)

I look straight into your large green eyes
The pupils wide black pools
You gaze into mine
So small and so blue
We stare and your lids slowly close
For a moment I was there
In that room with myself
All consuming, all blissful, all free
I left in tears as I returned to this world
Still itching, still spinning, still me.

Evolution Series 1 (218/365)

Evolving into higher order
Taking energy from somewhere
We all feel it in us
A force for life
Defying the natural laws
In a spike of time infinitely small
Miracles happen

Personal (217/365)

But how do you really feel?
That story inside your head
The one you tell yourself every time it happens
What do you say to yourself
To get to sleep at night
When you don't measure up
When you're making that purchase
When you're looking in the mirror
What do you say
That alienates others
Before you meet them
That closes opportunities
As you approach them
What thoughts are holding us back?

Without You (216/365)

My lover is gone
I stir the pot
Don't whine! Don't whine!
I'm ready not really
Another wasted day
Without you

Looking Back (215/365)

I've become the person I always despised
The wussy, cold blooded Californian
Liberal agnostic
Who takes deep breaths
Walks miles a day
Calls veggie burgers a meal
Buys her fruit organic
I never understood the girl
Who dabbles in astrology
Reads of the east
Who admits she doesn't know it all
Especially about life
Who champions thinking twice
About issues once so black & white
I've accepted so much change
It's a pattern ingrained
I thought I'd like security
But restlessness drives me
I await tomorrow with baited breath
Of course I believe in change
Anything less would be my death

You Can Run (214/365)

Why am I paying 25 percent
A sum I can't afford
While the rich pay 1 percent
And run for office on the balance
Why do those crooks still have their jobs
While the honest scramble for dollars
The rebound a facade, I'm not buying it
The greed peddlers sold fake products
They should be in jail
They almost brought the country I love
To ruin
They bribed and they lied and we bought
Obama's not perfect and neither are we
But you gave Bush 43 eight long years
You can't purge a Senate in eleven months
Of the criminals who drank the wine
If the rich choose to sit on their piles of money
Winners in a game where the refs are paid off
Then God help them
When we take back our country

Touch (213/365)

The spark of a human touch
Sets off purring ecstasy
Connections heal
Don't stop the flow
When I need it the most
Our skin not a barrier
But a bridge, a conductor
Bodies meet or repel into space

Living Fearlessly (212/365)

No room for yoga on a plane
But they were right about people!
Who thought fear was immortal?

Bubble Fever (211/365)

A microcosm of the creator
We receive, expand, and send
Then there are those
Who receive many big bubbles
Catch them in their hands
Then compress and compress
And add to their floating pile
While fireworks go off around the world
The explosion of the century is gathering fuel

The Process (210/365)

Show me my demons
I can wrestle them now
Show me your demons
And I shrink in disgust
Slow to compassion
But give me some time
We'll work it through
In solitary we purge
Together we learn

Let it Be (209/365)

Misaligned, mistaken
Hurt by a phantom of the opera
Send joy to me
Let me be the glorious animal I am capable of
Let me be unmoved
By my imaginary fears
And driven by freedom, justice, and fun
Fill my heart daily with love
For myself, for others, for life
Let each day be a celebration
And constant worship of the great unknown

Help, help, help

"The idea of helping others is a subtle form of the ego. It is only the Divine Force that can help. One can be its instrument, but you should first learn to be a fit and egoless instrument...To grow in the spirit is the greatest help one can give to others, for then something flows out naturally to those around that helps them."

-Sri Aurobindo

Prose (208/365)

Turning the dials
Where will I land?
I've got a long way to go but only I can walk this path all the way
A new read on an old verse
It's not a battle anymore
Think of it as perspective

Right Now (207/365)

We're all enablers
Householders
Surely God won't punish the successful
Who can get inside the mind of that
Infinitely patient comedian?
What does he care who finds him?
It's not an Easter egg hunt
Can't I enjoy the inbetween?
What's the point of wearing this skin
If I can't have some fun in it?

Steer Clear (206/365)

Once you get past the discomfort
Your sky will fill with a rainbow
Let the bad energy go
You don't even know it's there sometimes
Take it a step further
Don't let it enter your body
It will twist your face
And scare away the children
Practice the good vibes
So you know the difference
Steer your own vessel for once
And for all

So Far From Magic (206/365)

What's more important than living?
I show up late and basically do about 15 minutes of actual work
In any given week
My life is my new office
I'm in the same damned cubicle
I thought I blew up that pop stand
But here I am
A step forward on my broken ladder stilts
But still playing the game
I shoulda joined the military
Or maybe a convert
But I had my own ideas

Not a Game (205/365)

People keep mistaking me for being rich
I should have dressed nicely today
The mayor lives on main street
And kisses his wife by the windows
Like I'm a chipmunk but there's no winter here
So what's all the stockpiling for?
I finance myself
I take my own risks
I don't run businesses like you do
Reputation, reward, risk, revenue
It's not a game; it's a civilization

Technology (204/365)

No more fluoride
Aluminum chlorohydrate
Aspartame
No more hydrogenated oils
SPAM
Non-organic fruits
No more mercury sushi
High fructose corn syrup
Enriched white flour
No more sugar
Genetically modified
Irradiated meats
No more steroid
Antibiotic
Chlorofluorocarbons
No more carbon monoxide
Nitrites
Burned hot dogs
Trash-burning dioxins
No more x-rays
Water bottles
Microwaved foods
And we're just getting started

Bailout

When 50% of our banks fail, they get a bailout.
When 50% of marriages fail, why does the government do nothing to save that institution?

Perhaps the gay marrige debate is just what we need to fuel rethinking of our failure to maintain proper relationships in our society.

Bumpersticker

I'm diagonally parked
In a parallel universe

Quote

"Defeat and surrender are two very different things."

-WWII discussion on NPR

Find Me (203/365)

Below the calmness on the surface
A red-hot fire rages
Some days not even a ripple
Some days I boil over
A day without a giant leap forward
And my compass spins and spins
I'm a weapon of mass creation
Find me, aim me, use me

Out (202/365)

Rattling this cage
There must be a way out
I'm tired of the fear
The isolation
The mind is an itchy trigger finger
She makes me nervous
And I'm so close to taming that beast
Charming that snake
Yes, I'm the peaceful warrior
Tall, proud, dressed in white
Riding my mare through the clouds
I protect my kingdom and rule with majesty
We, the people, with our faces to the sun.

Two Lovers (201/365)

What if I only wrote love songs?
Who would I be if I left this body?
Why do you want me so badly?
Where would I go if you led me?
What would I see with your eyes?
I want ten more years to play the game
Of efficiency, currents, and flow
Then what will you make of my living anchor
Who parked me so close to you?
Please show us mercy and resurrect us
As I was lost without him
Or if he is, in fact,
My tether to your world
If so, reel us both in together

Greater (200/365)

Mirror lakes, cliffs
Rainbow slicks
Gentle waves and blue skies
Puffy clouds
Clean air
Wildflowers
Clear light
Sunkissed
Just right

Blend (199/365)

You won't become an outlier
Buying the shine off a star
Be satisfied on your path
Recognize what fits
Sometimes our simple lives
Look empty from the inside
But you are not the one stirring your pot
The master chef decides when you are seasoned
You can scream like the lobster
Wither like greens
Escape and burn like steam
Or you can give of yourself and blend in beautifully
Satisfying all who partake
And bringing pride to your name

Dark Day (198/365)

Many malicious smiles
Light up the basement
Make it all go away
Give me some of that good lovin'
Makin' a pizza with the blacklight on
Fried the onions.
Let's eat! This cancer's killin' me.
A lick on the cheek
A wet nose
Silly sweetness on a dark day

Shakin' (197/365)

It was the party of the decade
Laughin'
Dancin'
Feelin' good, movin' smooth
Then the earthquake
Split the room in two
Half bracing the floor
Half dazed and confused
It killed the mood
But they understood

Sons & Daughters (196/365)

Brothers and sisters of another kind
I recognize the artist in you
The leader, the achiever
The sensual, life-thirsty
Soul reader
The moon watched as we were born
Together, years apart
The sun rose twice and kissed our crowns
Kings and queens of a new world

Sparkle (195/365)

We must be the lucky ones
Loving this life
Despite its twists and turns
And forever closed boxes
We shine in the good times
Hold hands in the bad
Meet each day with awe
Over deep-seeded joy
When we draw closed the curtains
They cheer for an encore
We oblige in gratitude
And give them a show

Creatures Rising (194/365)

Pole to pole
Flying low
See how scared they all are?
Moving fast
The slow thought dumb
And ignored in the awards
Mate or judge
Rear or work
Fix yourself
The ego loves not
The more you hurt
The more to fix
The squeeky wheel
Should take the grease

Mostly Static (193/365)

Love, peace, light pouring down
Like hot wax over my body
Melting every wrinkle and frown
Changing my wattage and frequency
I'm tuning in to a new station
It's still mostly static
But the broadcast
Is pure sound

Occupation

Whatever it is you have the patience for could be your calling.

Truth Seekers (192/365)

The giddy nature of risks:
At once dreadful and enticing
Fear of the unknown can cripple and stifle.
The courage to be open to a wider truth,
To step out the front door of your cozy little box
Into a world beyond control where anything might manifest,
Offers great rewards to the full-blooded optimist,
Who sees rainbows through raindrops;
Reflections in puddles.
The risk is certain to yield dividends
Yet unnamed
And blessings to all who host her Highness in humility

Bubbly (191/365)

I am champagne
Misery avoids me
This lightness and bouyancy
Lifts others up
A skip in my step
A heart full of love
God must be celebrating
Shaken then showered

(190/365)

Famous but no one cares
My keyboard a filter that keeps you from reading my mind
No one wants to talk about
Controlling your own thoughts
As if every thought was a gift from God
And not just a calculated guess

The vital

"The vital is an indispensable instrument - no creation or strong action is possible without it. It is simply a question of mastering it and of converting it into the true vital which is at once strong and calm and capable of great intensity and free from ego."
-Sri Aurobindo

Humble Yourself (189/365)

If you had the courage to go naked for one day
Admit you didn't know it all
And wander humbly toward the East
Staying alert for mind-bending soul-snatchers
You might be pleasantly surprised
And find yourself sufficiently nourished by the delightful taste of truth
At every vendor
A sensation you recognized from a long time ago
But since veiled in thick metal armour
And armed with a sword of fear
Stabbing perilously at any perceived threat
To its own confidence and superiority
Building castles and recruiting soldiers in the name of God
Is it any wonder why the rest of the world distrusts us?

Snuggie Angel

Snuggie Angel, originally uploaded by Chrissy Mc.

My roommate got 2 snuggies for Christmas. I thought the pink one was so cheesy it deserved a pose in front of the tree.

Resolutions 2010

I reviewed last year's resolutions and updated a new list for this year. I've found it useful to make one long list of everything you want your life to look like, then break it into manageable chunks like those below. You may not do them all, but this list has helped me make major changes year-to-year. I hang it in a place I can see it daily (work, home, and computer desktop). Final and archived lists/mission statements are here: http://www.eachlittlemystery.com/profile.html

Monthly:

• Read 1 new book per month
• Plan business paperwork time & monthly analysis time
• Monthly conference calls & outings 6 per year with tenants
• Monthly massage
• Save money & not take it out of savings
• Meet up with local friend once per month
• Talk with distant friend once per month
  
• One yoga class per month

Weekly:

• Swim one day per week minimum
• Lift weights 2-3x/week
• Go grocery shopping regularly every week
• Volunteer 2 hours/week
• Do laundry regularly
• Massage or teach yoga to someone

Daily:

• Hatha yoga & meditate (or read spiritual texts) twice daily
• Prepare meals for next day in advance
• Eat salad 3x/week minimum
• Get up 2 hours before I have to leave the house
• 1 hour of exercise
• Minimum one blog entry daily – personal
• Minimum one blog entry daily – coaching
• Daily vitamins

  

Annual (within 2010):

• Learn to do a back handspring
• Continue formal education in track & field, yoga, and massage by taking at least 1 workshop of each
• Become certified in personal training & CPR
• Sign up for a college class or study Chinese regularly
• Keep hair looking nice
• Go to 4 concerts minimum
• Take surf lesson
• Visit Bozeman
• Visit Mom & Dad
• Visit Ryan
• Visit NYC or travel internationally
• Join & go to church regularly

Qualities I wish to embody:

• Respond, not react
  

Rushed (188/365)

I don't mean to be ungrateful
I was saved by grace
A hundred times
And that was just last year
Forgive me when
I tear out the weeds
When I should have, discreetly
Planted the seed
To choke the weeds out
But their sight is apalling
And I have little patience
To wait for results
I'm finding myself
In a cocoon of grace
But safety breeds carelessness
And time is a-wastin.